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ive had no fortune. ive fallen into the habit of reading oldest messages to relive experiences of friendship this is all just destroying me. i rly need a hug but i think im oblivious to just how hideous i must be since i never got one even back when i had people in my life. i miss my life.

new year... dont rly have words for this year honestly, i just hope this 2026 i meet many friends my age that care abt me, i will probably turn to using spanish on the internet, im not sure how im gonna go about it. this coming year already awaited many challenges b4 starting, i could very well end up **** to be honest! please keep me in mind this year...

tomorrows deadline for christmasasaurus comp so i redid that awful cover and sent it in, its still awful but in the charming christmas spirit way. ive also been ahving nothing but barbacued meat and water these past few days which makes me feel closer to being feral. work on renpy continued although 2day i spent all my time sleeping then making music =.= i kinda need some scenario mockups already which sounds like a lot of work. good evening. after writing entry i realised i didnt send the audio file with the submission.... im sick and justified.

mewkiss christmas

opened renpy nd made some stuff, kind of hopeful? novel about heart hunting 4 in the afterlife with odd women. dont have much 2 show yet :P.
also played making music a little, i like mychemicalromance a lot lately. all of these r just like the start of the song lawl

this is hte best day ever cover
typical arp stuff i do
horrible mookies last christmas cover i made while rly sick

2day i woke up from vry intense dreams feeling vry different nd grounded in reality. there was no food at home so i went 2 buy somethign quickly after waking up past 12pm and got what i could and made sauteed minced meat and legumes in tomato dinner nd 4 my family that wld come home late. after eating i fell asleep happily nd i woke up a little before my family got home and dinner was unpleasant and disgusting in contrast. as always wish i could write a visual novel and accomplish something ive always wanted but i simply have nothing interesting 2 say. a bit defeated...

2day is a slow saturday, i spent the day making a jester plushie, hopefuly its of some use... some thinsg make me sad nd some make me happy ! good night

my latest idea ive had thanks 2 several people somehow mentioning to me relationship between bodily fluids nd art simulatenously in a small window of time is colorpicking my pee and making a "peesona". nd its fun nd i liked having fun. i was also made aware of christmasaurus compilation open 4 submissions nd im trying 2 make a cover of saosin mookies last christmas 4 it. good mornign everyone